Do I even have any?
Why do people even do New Years' Resolutions? Haven't studies shown that they don't work?
Which is exactly why I've decided to write my goals for 2023.
Don't judge me.
Of course, one of my biggest goals is to graduate from Duke early, at the end of 2023. This way I can travel with my partner, who will be in the Army very soon.
I guess another goal I have is to continue working, even if it's odd jobs like the ones I've been getting from Care.com.
I want to not struggle with money as much next year, so getting the job I'm interviewing for on Thursday will be a huuuuuuuge bonus, even if it's not exactly the kind of work I am looking for.
On that note, as far as working goes, I'd like to keep up with my writing more than I have in the past forever. Meaning, since I was about 10 years old, I haven't written for pleasure and I definitely haven't shared anything I've written passionately up until recently. So, another goal for me is to write something every day next year. And by something, I mean at least a blog post a day.
Speaking of my relationship, my goal is to stay with my partner throughout next year and the years to come. I know long-term relationships, especially when they have to be long-distance at some point, tend to me extremely difficult, but I don't think this one will be. I've never felt so connected to and loved by another person. My partner is beyond words amazing. I know I'm not even half as awesome, but I hope to become that way someday.
I also want to take better care of my mental health next year. I've recently endured some medicine changes that sent me off the deep end and my goal for next year is to avoid that at all costs. That means making sure I have all the medicine I need, which has been a responsibility I've struggled with in the past, as well as actually using the techniques my therapist and I work on to keep me "stable."
In the theme of mental health, next year I want to care less about what other people think of me and more about what I think of me. I recently shaved my head and I love it so much. It's not the first time I've cut my hair extremely short, but it is the first time I've gone almost-bald and not regretted it immediately. A lot of my family says that they prefer my hair longer which has always pressured me to grow it out but...it's not me, it's not how I want to look. Which is why I really want to avoid the social expectations trap next year and be more, well...me.
Maybe a little contradictory, but I also want to lose weight next year. I've been on a steady decline recently. I consistently weight about 10 pounds less than I did in November, which I'm rather proud of. My goal is to get to the point where I am happy going to the gym every day. I like how I look now, but I also kind of want to look like The Rock so...kinda need to exercise.
A more abstract goal of mine is just to be content with the way things are. My mind is kind of like a perfectionist out of habit, but I know I can be really relaxed about things like people running late and changing plans. I guess it's because I've always tried to be perfect because that's what my parents expected to the point where I can no longer relax and just let things be. I'm going to work on it, at least.
I also want to be a better dog and cat mom next year. I've spent a lot of time being irritated at my pets for needing things when they're, you know, in need. I want to relax more and enjoy the time I have with them without thinking about the next thing I need to do.
I guess the real problem with New Years' Resolutions is that people somehow expect them to come true from one day to the next, but these are all things I've been working on for the past year. I just want to keep up the good work and see how things turn out for next year.